What we dream of, and strive for, isn't necessarily what life decides we should experience. I have seen, and experienced, this fact more than once in my own life. Read on and I'll elaborate.
While disappointment is part of life, it doesn't mean it's easy to bear. A dear friend of mine auditioned for a role that she really wanted, but was not cast in ... it doesn't mean that she isn't brilliant, it simply means that she wasn't what the director envisioned for that particular part ... which doesn't make it any less painful for her. I have been working to obtain my CNA certification, but as the classes are conducted like the state boards (one mistake and you're out) I got kicked out of the program for a mistake. Granted, if you make a single mistake medically, it can come back quadruple-fold, and that makes logical sense for the training, but it still hurts and feels shameful regardless. It doesn't matter how much we want it, or how hard we work for whatever "it" is. Sometimes things just don't come to fruition at the exact moment we want them to happen.
Being rejected, under any circumstance, is difficult at best and debilitating at worst. Just because it's something we want, or something we work our hardest for, doesn't mean it's something we'll obtain at the exact moment we desire it to be. We may achieve whatever "it" is at a later point, but sometimes the universe has other plans for us in the immediate. I am a big believer in the adage "everything happens for a reason". It may take some time to understand the reason, but it exists all the same. For instance, when I was younger I wanted to dance ... more than anything. The day I got a call back audition from a large theme park conglomerate was the day I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. I have learned more about myself, as a parent, than I ever could have learned otherwise, and that, to this day, continues to be one of the greatest experiences of my life. When she was five I got the opportunity to become a teaching artist for a professional ballet company and be mentored by one of the most incredible people I have ever had the privilege to know. We performed together, we created curriculum together, and ultimately had the honor of touching the lives of many kids and families through the medium of dance. It was one of the most gratifying times of my life. If I had not had her, I might not have experienced that, and I would not trade it, or her, for anything in the universe. What I originally thought should happen in my life, simply came to pass in a different, more gratifying form later on. I couldn't see it at the time, but looking back, I would not change anything.
I realize I'm getting incredibly philosophical, but the point is this, even though we may not like some moments that occur in our lives at the time that they are happening, those moments and experiences are all, ultimately, part of a greater plan that we are supposed to have happen in all of our lives. From the small moments, to the large heartbreaks, we have to go through each thing to become who we are truly supposed to be, and to have real appreciation for the wins that we do experience. Agree or disagree, but I truly belive that all moments in life really do happen for a positive reason.
~ The Girl In The Little Black Dress
